Saturday, September 27, 2008

Come closer

"And I love the thought of coming home to you
Even if I know we can't make it
I love the thought of giving hope to you
Just a little ray of light shining through"

Bueno, después de bastantillo tiempo de no postear regreso, intentando más que todo imponerme las ganas de volver a escribir... No tengo mucho que conta
r, únicamente que el 5 de diciembre me voy para Perú y regreso el 7 de enero, hago escala en Colombia (que miedo, me van a raptar T_T) y llego a Lima a la 1am.

Así que debo aguantar un par de meses más en la monotonía del trabajo... Bueno, no hay mal que por bien no venga.

Mi hermana me mandó unas fotos de mi sobrina, tiene un año ya y camina. Les voy a dejar mi favorita. Ahí nos estamos leyendo. Chaito.

Tuesday, September 16, 2008

To let go...

Let me wake up in your arms
Hear you say it's not alright
Let me be so dead and gone
So far away from life
Close my eyes
Hold me tight
And bury me deep inside your heart
-HIM-



And I shall let myself go.
I shall give it another chance.
Look up to the sky and whisper...
... It is alright indeed.

Everything eventually ends.
One day I will smile again because you love it.

Ever thine
Ever mine
Ever ours...

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

What's gonna happen tomorrow?

"I have to believe it will be alright in the end"
- Duran Duran -

There are times when we punish those we need most, don't we?

Oh well, dull as always I feel I'm missing some inspiration for my entries. The time when I longed for a good essay is gone. Now I feel I'm lacking something inside, the words... the "muse".

And although I could write pages and pages of a certain something... It would still be nothing... At all.

A heart filled with dust and sand. A place where I don't belong. Just this echo in my head. Those words I forgot to say.

No, pardon me, I'm not really good at writing poems, not even close I believe. And I don't like them, I really don't. They are often boring, corny and not my style so I'm not even gonna try to sound poetic or so. Don't get me wrong, my melancholy is taking control more than I'd like to. Sigh, nevermind.

Still, I'm going to place this piece of art here. It really touched my heart. I want my beloved one to read this to me when I can no longer belong to someone else...

"Though still in bed,
my thoughts go out to you,
my Immortal Beloved,
now and then joyfully, then sadly,
waiting to learn whether or not fate will hear us
- I can live only wholly with you or not at all -

Yes, I am resolved to wander so long away from you
until I can fly to your arms and say that I am really
at home with you, and can send my soul enwrapped
in you into the land of spirits -

Yes, unhappily it must be so - You will be the more contained
since you know my fidelity to you.
No one else can ever possess my heart - never - never -
Oh God, why must one be parted from one whom one so loves.
And yet my life in V is now a wretched life -

Your love makes me at once the happiest and the unhappiest of men
- At my age I need a steady, quiet life -
can that be so in our connection? My angel, I have just been told
that the mailcoach goes every day -
therefore I must close at once so that you may receive the letter at once

- Be calm, only by a calm consideration of our existence
can we achieve our purpose to live together -
Be calm - love me - today - yesterday - what tearful longings for you
- you - you - my life - my all - farewell.
Oh continue to love me - never misjudge the most faithful heart of your beloved.

ever thine
ever mine
ever ours".

-Beethoven-

Monday, September 01, 2008

Vacations... What for?

Now I'm on my own side
It's better than being on your side
It's my fault when you're blind
It's better that I see it through your eyes

Well... I finished college last week and right now I'm "enjoying" my vacations. Quoted cause I have to work so, the word vacation sounds silly to me right now. Nonsense.

I'm really tired and anxious, I'm waiting for several answers in my life but I'm patient, as always...

But even tho future seems so blurry and present seems unreal I'm pretty happy, it's awkward, I guess I'm becoming stronger. I really hope so.

I believe I will be able to move forward, with a little help of my friends that is. :)

Before I leave, I want to feel the sand between my toes and the breeze in my face.

When I'm gone, will you remember me?